Actually having serious thoughts can be very unsettling... After a fun-filled evening with my friend, I come home and start thinking about every single thing that's going on in not only my own life, but in every one elses' lives. I'm at a point where I'm contemplating several options, one of which is quitting my part-time, highly underpaid job at the depot, and not having another job lined up beforehand. Another thing bugging me lately is that I'm not sure if I'll ever actually have the independence I need and the relationship I want. I know I don't need someone else to make me a whole person, but at the same time, I want someone else around to share stuff with. I also want independence in the form of my own place. Living at home is becoming more and more trying. I love my family, but I truly think it's time for me to move away... soon! I want so much to just be a grownup, contributing member of society, who can afford a nice apartment, a nice little compact car, and can afford to pay bills in full every single month. I don't believe I'm asking for too much, but I'm having a difficult time realising these wishes.