Today's interactions have led me to wholly believe that something is trying to keep me stuck at the depot. Yet again, my efforts to proceed with my education are thwarted. The bank is doing a trace on the money that the school says they never got. The lady at the bank tried to get information for me right then and there, but she didn't have access to that information. My life is now put on hold for another 2 weeks while I wait for the trace to arrive in the mail. Because of this, I can't pick up my loan, so I can't get my books. I still don't have a schedule, and it seems as though no one cares. I'm shuffled around from department to department, and the only answer I get is "Sorry, I can't help you with that." I'm quickly finding myself getting more and more depressed over the entire situation. If only I would have had enough time to physically deliver the money to school, rather than use the ATM... then I wouldn't be dealing with this huge mess.

I don't even know if I should stay for the orientation session. Watch them tell me I can't participate because my fees are allegedly unpaid. Maybe I should just tell someone at the registrar's office to refund my money, that I'm sick of all this bull... although then, I'm stuck with my money in limbo, and I'll be resigned to work at the depot, pretending that I'm happy with my job. I'm sick of lying to the managers and customers that I love my job, and that I'm oh so loyal to the compay. To be honest, a small part of me wishes that I would have been the one to rip the company off for thousands of dollars...

I've still got to wait 2 hours before this orientation session starts... I really don't know what to do. Part of me wants to stay, in the hope that someone will take pity on me for this huge mix up, while the other part of me wants to run from this place, screaming. I don't know how much more rejection I can be subjected to before I snap. I've been made to feel as if this entire situation is my fault, and quite frankly, I'm sick of it. The next person who tells me "I can't help you, your fees aren't paid," will be rightly told to piss off. Neither the school or the bank want to take responsibility for this problem, and each institution keeps on blaming the other. The entire situation is out of my hands, and I am not assuming responsibility for this, nor will I be further penalized for someone else's incompetence.

All I want to do is go to school. I've kept my end of the bargain, so I don't think it's too much to ask.

I've also come to the realization that at some point, my palm is going to run out of battery juice, and I'll be left sitting here in silence, stewing over everything that's gone wrong thusfar. If it lasts another 15 minutes, I'll be extremely surprised.

One large accomplishment for the day is that I've managed to take 4 different transit systems in one day! HSR, Burlington Transit, GO Transit, and Oakville Transit. I truly think I'm the "Greenest" person I know, at least for today, seeing as I've used that many public transit systems.